I hope that no one i know will read this. It's not that I'm going to divulge any secrets. It's just that I often scoff at people who have blogs "who cares what they have to say".
Why am I doing this? My hope is that this will keep from me getting myself into trouble. Work is really slow now - nobody is buying anything so I have tons of time to fill during the day. My previous activities - looking at real estate, planning dream vacations, reading mommy blogs - were leaving me feeling frustrated and ill-at-ease. I'm trying to get pregnant and it's taking longer than I anticipated. I have one lovely daughter, who's 2 1/2. So I can get pregnant. But I've also had two miscarriages. In the grand scheme of things, I'm extremely fortunate. But the day-to-day; month-to-month, head games are exhausting. Taking my temperature in the month, scrutinizing cervical mucus, checking my cervix and then two weeks later thinking - are my boobs sore, are they bigger? wait - do i feel nauseous? is that a line on the home pregnancy test? It's soul-crushing.
So the point of all of this is to try to distract myself from all of that. I do not intend for this to be a mommy-blog. The world has way too many of those. Nor is it supposed to be a trying-to-conceive blog. It's a "I've got 4 more hours until the clock says that I can go and I need something to do that makes it seem like I'm working" blog.
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