neverending

each day is an eternity. i need to find a new career. or a better way to occupy my time. i cannot believe that i have so much time left before 5pm.

iIjust finished reading Abraham Verghese's novel, CUTTING FOR STONE. It was brilliant. Each character was fully developed and I enjoyed the inclusion of all of the medical information. I love that sort of blood & guts. It's fascinating. The climax of the story wasn't a surprise but it was excellent book nonetheless. He thanked John Irving in the acknowledgements and there's a definite similarity in their styles. Big lush stories with many well-defined characters with lots of "coincidences". I love a good John Irving book and I'm sad to say that it's been several years since his last one. I've been fortunate to receive an advanced copy of his next book. Fingers crossed!

Sometimes with books, I get a craving for a specific kind of book or author's style. Does anyone else get that? It's kind of like the craving for a mushroom & sausage pizza except it's a old-school Stephen King book or fun YA apocalypse book (mad props to THE HUNGER GAMES series!!). I'm also super excited about the upcoming Stephen King book, UNDER THE DOME. It's a shocking 1000 pages and it's been compared to THE STAND. Ah, THE STAND - that's the kind of book that I envy people who get to read it for the first time. Same with the HARRY POTTER series and lots more.

OK - I've killed 10 minutes. Let me go fill up my blue plastic water cup.

here goes...

I hope that no one i know will read this. It's not that I'm going to divulge any secrets. It's just that I often scoff at people who have blogs "who cares what they have to say".
Why am I doing this? My hope is that this will keep from me getting myself into trouble. Work is really slow now - nobody is buying anything so I have tons of time to fill during the day. My previous activities - looking at real estate, planning dream vacations, reading mommy blogs - were leaving me feeling frustrated and ill-at-ease. I'm trying to get pregnant and it's taking longer than I anticipated. I have one lovely daughter, who's 2 1/2. So I can get pregnant. But I've also had two miscarriages. In the grand scheme of things, I'm extremely fortunate. But the day-to-day; month-to-month, head games are exhausting. Taking my temperature in the month, scrutinizing cervical mucus, checking my cervix and then two weeks later thinking - are my boobs sore, are they bigger? wait - do i feel nauseous? is that a line on the home pregnancy test? It's soul-crushing.

So the point of all of this is to try to distract myself from all of that. I do not intend for this to be a mommy-blog. The world has way too many of those. Nor is it supposed to be a trying-to-conceive blog. It's a "I've got 4 more hours until the clock says that I can go and I need something to do that makes it seem like I'm working" blog.

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